at the surface; in the subterranean

a new moon invitation

tears are right at the surface this week;

i feel tender & whole in the best way.

it’s a grey day in the northeast of the so-called USA

i’m about to commit to my growth & expansion in a big way; it is time.

a few minutes ago i was staring out the window and i said aloud (to no one, to myself, to the all):

i am here for love.

i am here for sacred rage.

a wave of goosebumps washed over my entire being, my eyes welled with tears, and i looked out the window again: the rain had started to fall.

i feel like i’m in the calm after the storm. i’m at the end of the fucking rainbow.

i think it’s safe to say the past three years have gutted all of us in one way or another. old ways of being had to be released, skins had to be shed, adaptations had to be made. of course, that’s life, but it feels like we’re in an accelerated growth process. in many ways it feels like sink or swim.

last year i almost sank. when i decided it was time for a life preserver, another wave came. and another. and another.

tears were constantly at the surface.

and now it’s summer and somehow i’ve managed to make my way to shore.

somehow is actually determination, gritted teeth, allowing the waves to come with as little resistance as i could muster, and turning again and again and again to that which is greater than me. some days it’s Hekate, other days it’s the moon, or the ocean, or my trusted guides & ancestors. and of course, friends & family.

the storm, being lost at sea, being submerged in the murky depths; it all cracked my heart open even wider, something i hadn’t thought possible. but i guess that’s also life.

it’s probably why taylor swift’s clean and hilary duff’s coming clean are such iconic songs, steeped in the collective consciousness (ok there are less memes featuring clean but we all know that at this point taylor is larger than life & her body of work is as well).

thank you for reading my musings. this post is public so feel free to share it with anyone you think might enjoy it.

this brings me to my invitation to you. you could also take it as an offering if you like. use it any time, or don’t use it at all. it’s up to you.

i recommend setting aside about 20-30 minutes of undisturbed time to really get the most out of this. you may want more; do whatever feels right for you.

if it feels safe & right to you, gather up any and all of your stormy feelings. do this in the way that will allow you the greatest access to them: write them down, feel them in your body, say them out loud, observe them as thoughts. there are only right ways, and you will find yours.

once you’ve gathered all of your feelings up and you’ve acknowledged and observed them, take a few minutes to let them wash over you. i like to imagine that there is a heavenly spotlight about my head, pouring magickal golden light liquid over me, washing away any energetic debris, sending them off for transmutation. you might want to try the acupressure technique, Jin Shin Jyutsu**. you might want to scream (maybe into a pillow so you don’t freak your neighbors out too much—but if you want to freak them out, that’s your call too. this is your time).

the final step in this process is to shake it out. move your body in a way that feels good to you. maybe pick a song or a playlist that helps you reeeeally release those stormy feelings. offer them up to the universe, to your guides, or whatever greater than you thing you feel most connected to. you could even imagine the ocean as your ally in this, or the stars. there are only right ways.

if you did write down your stormy feelings, i recommend destroying them in some way. burn them (safely!!!), tear them up, submerge them in water, bury them in a freaking plant (a plant that is willing to aid you in this endeavor, please!), or even black out what you wrote and then write what you want to call in over it.

if you really want to ritualize this, maybe take a shower or bath & really take your time. invite the water into this sacred process & thank it for helping you. imagine it sealing in all of the things you want to call in, and/or clearing away the debris from the storm for good.

i know i said this is a new moon invitation, but you don’t have to do this today, or tomorrow, or next week, but in the timing that is perfect for you.

if you try this, i’d love to know how it goes.

happy new moon, i’m glad you’re in my orbit 💞

**the Jin Shin Jyutsu video i linked was the simplest demo i could find on youtube, but if you’d like a graphic, i’d be happy to share one! i learned this technique from my hypnosis instructor, Désirée Eckert.